December 28, 2017

Two Months Old

Weight: anywhere between 11-13lbs. we go for his checkup next week
Hair: its turning from brown to dirty blonde, just like his older brother. I so so wanted just one kiddo to take after me. guess that's not happening
Eyes: blue
Clothes: we've made the switch to 3-6 months and so far PJs are fitting a whole lot better
Diapers: size 1
Likes: being held/ cuddled upright while walking. very specific. when his brother comes over to shush him. his mamaRoo. bath time is still a hit.
Dislikes: sussie, being left alone while awake (not a content baby). being put into the carseat. and if mom takes more then 10secs to feed him
Eating & Sleeping: still eating very frequently. supplementing with formula. dad will help out with a bottle or two during the night and I'll nurse him for the other feeds. typically still 2 hours during the day. has done a couple of 3 hour stretches at night and one 4 hour the other night. sleep wise he's usually awake in the evening and asleep before 11pm. up all throughout the night at different times to eat. for sure will wake & eat at 5am and 6am. wakes up to be awake between 8-9:30am. varies how long he'll stay awake. eats around lunch time and then sleeps solid all afternoon. that's one thing that consistent.

November 25, 2017


Tennyson was in the NICU for 8 days and we had nothing but a wonderful experience with our circumstances.

from wednesday to friday, neil and I spent as much time as possible in the NICU before I had to be discharged. he was admitted into the NICU because of his gestational age {34 weeks & 4 days}. he was on high oxygen, IV, feeding tube, his "house" had a regulated temperature and the standard monitors (heart rate, oxygen and pulse) in the beginning and each day, something was adjusted to see how he would react and he always did wonderfully. we were set up in bay 3 (bay 1 had critical babies and bay 7 meant going home). he had 1 neighbour beside him and 3 babies across from him. we are so lucky that he had no medical issues and was admitted just to figure out all the mechanics of being on the outside because a couple of the babies around us weren't so lucky.

we had one scare with him on the Thursday night after he was born. he was given formula twice that day because my milk hadn't come in yet. when we came in for the evening feed, our nurse said she wanted to chat with us. she showed us this dark brown/red yucky stuff in his feeding tube. they were concerned that there was blood in his belly but unsure if it was from delivery or if something internally was wrong. they ordered blood work and an x-ray to be done. as we were waiting to find out what was going on, 29 week twins were being admitted into the NICU and they of course were a priority to be cared for. neil and I had to wait in the waiting room and that was our first taste of real NICU life. the unknowns of what could be wrong with our baby, thinking the worst, being sent out instead of being able to stay with him. emotions were high and we ended up crying into each other. my parents had shown up to visit and were supposed to be able to hold him for the first time, but our visit was just us looking at him. his feeds were stopped the night to wait and see what the problem was and it ends up the blood in his belly was from delivery. his body reacted perfectly with my milk and he hasn't had formula since.

saturday to thursday, neil and I were trying to balance home life and NICU life. we had grandparents helping us on the weekend so we could both go be with him and then neil would go back on his own after shift change for the evening. neil went back to work monday, Caius went to daycare and I spent full days with Tennyson until I had to pick Caius up from daycare. neil would come home from work, do supper & Caius' bedtime and then he'd head to the NICU for as long as he could in the evenings. I was asleep by the time he'd get home because I'd be getting up throughout the night to pump. it was so hectic and hard even though it was a short while. we were crossing paths, we were both tired, I was home alone and night crying because Tennyson wasn't home with me. we thankfully had the opportunity to have a bloom camera to be able to login and watch him whenever we wanted to but it hurt my heart even more not being with him.

tennyson was an "easy" baby for the nurses workload and they all were wonderful. they would include us in everything, chat with us and make us feel like we weren't being an annoyance. having understanding and friendly nurses everyday made the experience a whole lot better. thursday morning I had gone in to visit and was in the mood to say "okay, what's it going to take to get him home?!" during rounds. he was doing everything he was supposed to be so why was he still here. as I sat and cuddled him and listened to his rounds updates, I saw one of the nurses mouth "discharge" to the other and shortly after, the attending doctor confirmed the news that he would be discharged. I thought I would cry in front of them but I just lit up with a huge smile. I told them I had everything ready to go in the truck and they said he would probably be good to go around 2pm. I stepped out to call Neil. every morning I would call him after rounds to give him an update on Tennyson. I was super calm when he first answered but very quickly said "its go home day!" he responded NO WAY! and was completely surprised. we both started crying on the phone and couldn't believe today was the day. I met him him back home so we could pick Tennyson up together. by 1pm we had gone through the checklist with the nurses (which was quite amusing since we knew everything she had to go through), my garbage bag of frozen milk was given to us, Tennyson was buckled in and we were on our way out. it felt so good to be walking away from the hospital knowing we wouldn't have to be coming back.

the NICU experience is definitely challenging and heartbreaking to be in there but we are incredibly thankful it went as well as it did. the NICU and NICU families will have a special place in our hearts.

One Month Old

Weight: he was 7lbs 2 oz. after being home for 10 days. we go for a weight checkup in 2 weeks but my guess he's 8lbs by now
Hair: lots of brown hair. the shaved spot from the NICU hasn't grown in
Eyes: they were really dark when he was born but they're definitely blue
Clothes: he's wearing newborn which he was swimming in when he first got home but they starting to fit pretty snug so he's wearing some 0-3 month sleepers. hasn't worn clothes yet aha
Diapers: newborn but those also seem snug so will be switching to size 1s soon
Likes: eating, cuddles, being in bath water, his sussie, swinging in his mamaRoo, laying on his tummy when being cuddled
Dislikes: being put in the carseat, burping, getting taken out of the bath and he'll sometimes cry with diaper changes and getting dressed
Eating & Sleeping: he's like clock work eating every 2 hours. it takes an hour to feed, burp, diaper change, feed and burp so I'm only getting 1 hour increments of sleep throughout the night. he will sometimes go 3 hours if he's in the mamaRoo or if we're driving but otherwise, it's every 2 hours. he's sleeping in his dockatot in our 4moms breeze playard in our room. he's super, super congested so he snorts and grunts most of the night. when we first got home, all he would do is eat and sleep and he's now having wake periods (during the night included)

November 7, 2017

34 Weeks

on sunday october 22nd, my water ruptured.

that morning, I asked Neil if we could install the car seat just because. {on the thursday prior, we had taken our house of the market because it was just getting too close to baby time.} when I came inside to put some of Caius' laundry away, I felt a wetness. I went to the bathroom to make sure it wasn't blood and it wasn't. the same kind of gush happened an hour later. after looking up possible reasons and reading about "premature membrane rupture", I drove myself to labor assessment. once I got there, they mentioned the same thing I had looked up and did a swab test to see if I was leaking amniotic fluid. until going to the hospital, I really didn't think it was anything major. there was no way my water broke at 34 weeks. when the test result came back positive, I instantly started bawling. and because of how many weeks I was, I hadn't had the group b strep test done yet so that was ordered. the test results take 48 hours to come in and they wanted to start me on a preventative antibiotic treatment via IV just to be safe. it would be given every 4 hours for 48 hours and until the results came back. I asked the nurse through my sobs if I could go home to see my son and pack a bag. I had such sad and scary emotions, plus guilt. I was supposed to be training the new girl who was going to be filling my position the next day and now I'd be in hospital for a couple of days. I was able to go home in between doses and try to soak up some time with Caius while also packing. Neil was able to drive me back to the hospital and hang out with me before he had to come back home to be with Caius.

things were pretty uneventful for me while waiting for the test results. I was woken up throughout the night and had to be reattached to the IV throughout the day to get the antibiotic. I did random laps around the hospital, layed in my junk ass bed watching netflix, Lauren & Miller came to visit and brought me lunch and I tried to sleep here and there. I was leaking so much fluid that 1st 24 hours, everyone said that labour would probably start sometime soon but nothing was happening. on monday night the boys came to visit and bring me supper. I was so excited to see Caius and felt so bad that I was missing time away from him. on tuesday afternoon, my mom came to visit after work and I was just getting hooked up to my next dose of antibiotic when the nurse came in and said that I had tested positive for the bacteria. I bawled and bawled because it was discussed that if the results came back positive, baby was going to be delivered the next day. I was so hopeful that it was going to be negative and I was going to be able to go home and have baby cook a bit longer, but deep down inside I knew what the result was going to be. when I called to tell Neil the news, he was totally shocked. I again asked if I could go home to see my son and re-pack a bag because baby was going to be delivered on Wednesday at 1:30pm. I came home and instantly collapsed into Neils arms crying. I had to spend the night before my c-section at the hospital alone because of needing the antibiotic still.

wednesday morning, Neil took Caius to his parents house as they were going to keep him for a few nights and was at the hospital by 10am. we just hung out in the lounge area waiting for 1:30pm. we packed up all my stuff from my antepartum room and just waited until we were told it's go time. a labour & delivery nurse came to get us at noon to get us prepped. for my c-section with Caius, I had laboured for 18 hours before going in for a c-section and the only 2 things I remember is being wheeled into the OR and being thankful a spinal tap would stop the back labour and telling myself to stay awake while laying on the table waiting for Caius to be born. so this time, it was a completely different experience. we met each team member one by one, with them going over what their role was. I had to take a shot of this awful drink to prevent any acid reflux issues. I was so nervous while waiting. not so much of the section but as to what kind of baby we'd be delivering at 34 weeks and 3 days. my patient nurse Tabitha was amazing. she made the whole situation light and comfortable. she was a huge, huge help with me not breaking down on delivery day. at 1:30pm I walked myself into the OR and the team started it all. I had multiple people talking to me and asking me questions, it was kind of a whirlwind. 45mins. later, Neil was able to join me and the procedure started. I could feel the tugging, pulling and pushing of my belly. Tabitha kept updating us on what was going on and baby would be close. she was taking photos for us as everything was going on so Neil was able to stay by my side the entire time. finally, she said he was coming.

at 2:29pm on Wednesday October 25th, Tennyson Neil Nagy was born. weighing 6lbs 4oz. and was 18.5" long. I remember laying there so anxious to hear them say he's here and me holding my breath for the news. instant tears once they announced he was out. I had asked for a clear drape in order to see his birth, which I got, but because he came out stunned, the surgeon wasn't able to hold him up for me to see him and the NICU team got in to assess him right away. Neil went over to be with him and I waited wondering if I would even be able to see him. Neil was able to bring him over and lay him on my chest for a good while. I was so thankful that I got to talk to him and touch him for a bit before he had to be taken to the NICU.

being in recovery was strange. I had just delivered Tennyson but he wasn't with me. Neil, my mom and dad hung out with me until they got the OK to go see Tennyson in the NICU. Tabitha again made me feel calm and okay by talking to me about random things. I was told it would be 6+ hours before I could go see Tennyson. I was taken up to postpartum a couple hours after surgery and we snagged the victorian room. again, strange to have with no baby but it sure was nice to have a suite, especially after being stuck in my tiny space in antepartum. that evening, my in laws brought Caius to visit. he was able to play in the room and cuddled in with me to watch videos. they all took turns going to see Tennyson. finally after 9pm that night, I got to go meet my newest little man.